In want of a distraction
Apparently many people have this impression that I am quite confident. I can sort of see where they get this impression from. I can talk without nerves in front of people. I am very open in what I divulge to people, and on occasion, can project a sense of self that may show a certain level of comfort with myself.
And sometimes I really believe that I am as confident as I might give the impression of being. But surely everyone knows that it is a well-crafted cover-up.
Here I am, a couple of days after realising I think I have a new boyfriend, constantly imbued with a sense of paranoia. Why does he seem to like me? He is SO hot (to me anyway), what does he see in me? I know I can be funny and interesting, but since when was that a reason to want to shag someone silly?
It is now that I realise what I "do wrong" in relationships. Clingy-ness starts to creep in. Doubt tip-toes around every corner. Worries and insecurities try to surface. I crave distractions to keep me away from excessive texting and emails. Suggestions anyone?