Hello Shelf, my old friend - I am back again.
I gave myself one task at the beginning of this year. It was to actively seek a fulfilling and meaningful relationship. Did I achieve this goal? Well, yes. But perhaps I should have specified that I also desired longevity.
My romance and relationship with B, as has been chronicled here, has been one of the most wonderful experiences of my life. He encompassed so much of what I have always wanted. But now it is over. My heart hurts. I can't stop crying. It takes all my strength to attempt to be sociable.
When I told this news to a friend this morning, he said, "Well you should be good at being dumped by now - it happens so much!". In time, this will get funnier, but right now, it just feels a little too true and painful.
As B was breaking up with me, he said that he loved me. But it would appear not enough.